H- 300lbs, health issues [Trigger Warning: Trauma]
Hi all! Long-time lurker, first-time member. Iíll call myself H.
I am a 23 year old female, engaged to be married and just finishing up my bachelorís degree. I am looking to go down to at least 200 pounds as a main goal, but my main purpose for wanting to lose weight is to get rid of some underlying health concerns.
I have been overweight since I was in fifth grade. Although I did yo-yo between healthy and unhealthy, family trauma (abuse, death of my father, drastic move across the country and high school bullying) kept food as my comfort. When I did try to lose weight, I went back and forth between being healthy and exercisingóand starving myself and using amphetamines to keep my appetite away.
When I moved out on my own, I gained the weight you gain when you realize you can buy whatever food you want. I live in a dangerous neighborhood, on a fixed income, so walking outside or going to a gym wasn't in the cards. Low income makes it difficult to shop healthily, as well.
In December of last year, I had to have my gallbladder removed. When I was done, I kept eating like everything was fine, because I was too scared to change my habits. I was very depressed after my motherís long, long illness over the past few years, and felt the only control of being able to eat what I wanted. Then I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism, MTHFR deficiency and fatty liver. The fatty liver is mild, but the pain has been so debilitating that working out is difficult.
I currently weigh 308 pounds. I deal with chronic pain, a poor income and a lot of stress.
I hope I can do this.