Hello! This is weird for me, as I'm not one to talk about myself.. My name is Sandra, and I'm fat. Wow, it feels like I'm at an AA meeting for hefty people. Oddly enough, it feels good to say that about myself and not immediately feel like I'm gonna be judged. Whoo.
Anyhoo, I'm here to find support and encouragement, and to meet people that I can identify with. Hubs isnt a large person, neither is anyone in my family aside from my younger brother (and he's only concerned with himself so there goes that haha.)
I have a gym membership that I hardly use.. Every time I go I feel like all of the trim people are judging me. Why? Well, duh, but seriously, the last time I was there I had a guy walk past my best friend and I and had that "OMG are u KIDDING me??!" look on his face. That was two weeks ago, and I havent been back.
I broke down last night while laying in bed talking to my husband, Rob. Everything came spilling out about how I feel. It felt good to cry about it, and saying it outloud gave me the motivation and determination to not care what those skinny fools think.
My last problem.. (boy I'm needy..) When I *am* at the gym, I walk once around the track and have to sit down. I used the stationary bike, and wanna quit because my legs come up and jiggle my stomach like a jovial clown with every turn of the pedals. Then I go home, type into my MyFitnessPal app what I did, and even with all the effort I put in I only burn 200-300 calories, feel like I didnt accomplish anything (since u have to burn what, 3500 calories to burn a pound??) and give up again.
Sorry this was so long-winded. I really havent been able to say any of this to anyone before.