The first time I saw my weight on the scale was just before I was going into surgery. I had avoided the scale at my doctor's office telling them I didn't want to get on it. Well...for surgery it's non-negotiable, they can't do anesthesia without knowing your weight. Let me tell you, thank GOD they knocked me out right after I saw the number blinking back at me.
Seeing a nutritionist and learning how to eat and lose weight have been priceless for me. It saved my life literally getting the weight off and getting my estrogen under control (I was diagnosed with endometrial cancer during the surgery I mentioned above and the estrogen in my fat cells was feeding the cancer...yuck...literally killing myself with my poor food choices). The medication I was taking to suppress the cancer was an appetite stimulant so most people gain weight taking it, I lost over 100lbs while taking it!
I'll be in menopause before the end of this year as I have to have a hysterectomy including my ovaries, tubes, etc. (I'm 38 so not really ready for it but...). Hopefully my nutritionist will be able to continue helping me get to goal and keep the pounds off.
I wish you lots of luck. I think you will love the support of this forum.