You have lots of people to talk to now!
We all know what you are going through and you'll get lots of support. Now no more shame! Be proud of yourself for taking this step to turn it back around! Some people never take that step. And look at it this way: You are 10 kg/22 lbs ahead of the game this time, and this time is all that matters!
So browse around and join in. The more involved you become, the more motivated and accountable you'll stay. We love newbies, so don't be shy. Jump right in! Good luck! You can do it!