For the second time in my life I'm at my highest weight and it sucks, especially since I lost almost 50 lbs before gaining back everything. I'm also afraid that if I don't make the appropriate changes, I'll gain even more and that just can't happen. I'm unhappy with my outward appearance as it is and feeling ugly isn't really helping when you're already feeling insecure, unloved and boring.
I know this sounds not very appealing but I wanted to tell it as it is right now - me losing weight will not be the only thing changing in my life so I hope I'll sound more optimistic sooner rather than later.
My goal weight isn't set in stone because I have absolutely no idea what I can achieve realistically - I'd rather be a bit chubby than have loose skin.
I'm glad I found this site, there seem to be a lot of supportive people and I'm looking forward to getting to know at least a few of you better.
Sorry for any mistakes, English isn't my first language, I see this as a great chance to improve it.