So, I've been floating around here for a long time, but have always been hesitant to post because then, well...that would be a commitment to actually doing something about my weight. And I've not been so good with commitment.
Here's the basics:
I am 21, 285lbs, and am an emotional and compulsive eater. Due to some hardships in my childhood, I turned to food as comfort and have never really been able to break the cycle.
But, now I am ready. I am repeating this mantra every day to try and remind myself why I am going to avoid those comfort moments of stuffing my face. "I want to enjoy my twenties, be happy and comfortable with myself, and eventually be a happy and healthy mom to my future children."
I am not an exerciser AT ALL. I am almost completely sedentary at this time. I work as a collection agent at a desk all day, and then come home and sit around. I always use the excuse that it hurts for me to work out because I'm so fat...but then, how am I ever going to break the cycle if I don't commit to change?
I recently got a 3 free visit pass to Goodlife fitness, and I am going to try and visit there during the week as well. There is actually a women's Goodlife above my local Loblaws grocery store, so I can get there easily and don't have to stress over "OMG, everyone is staring at me thinking what is that fat girl doing trying to go to the gym..." Again, I just need to actually COMMIT.
When it comes to diet, I am doing my best to make healthy choices, but I fall off the wagon A LOT. I have a doc's appt on March 26th, and I am going to discuss with her what my best option would be.
I was considering asking her about Adipex, to help boost my energy and weight loss for the first bit of my journey...does anyone have any thoughts?
I'd appreciate your support on what is going to be a long and grueling journey...