Permission to be selfish requested!
I am a newbie. This journey is mine, and I want to be selfish. I have realized that I really am one of those gals: dependable, easy to ask, "sure-she-will-help" people. I am a mom, a teacher, a wife, daughter, daughter-in-law, sister, friend. I want to be me, but I can't remember myself. Now that my sons are a little older, I can't even order at a restaraunt - what do I want? I can't even remember what I enjoy. So I seek the support of strangers similar to myself- ready to commit to themself, who are NOT going to ask me to watch their kids/ hem their slacks/ read over their drafts/ drop their checks at the bank. I've got the basics: burn more than I am taking in. Get up and move. Don't fret over the numbers. Well, as a person who can remember being "a buck-fifteen" size 3/4, this 180# size 14 is miserable. I know my body can do incredible things: I have 2 healthy sons. I just don't trust myself to take care of me anymore. And I am not fooling myself into thinking I can bet back to 3/4. I don't want to be that person- I want to be healthy, tuck-in-my-shirt-and-feel-ok, happy to be myself. Thanks for reading my crazy post, and I welcome any feedback. And no, I will not stop by and feed your dog while you are on vacation.
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