Although I lurk tons of weight loss/fitness sites I finally figured I'd find somewhere to vent/get advice since I feel pretty isolated and alone. A little background... I'm 38, I was in the Air Force from 18 to 28. During that 10 years it was an effort to maintain my mandatory weight standards (155) but I never weighed in over (a couple times I resorted to diuretics etc) but overall- just teetered on the edge of not making my weight. I was married for 9 of those years- when I got orders remote (Korea) my husband said it was him or the military- I chose him and got out. I was lucky to get a great job, but spent alot of time commuting (and putting on weight). I got pregnant a year later and when our daughter was 6 months old he left and we got a divorce. I was 185 when he left and he was sure to make it a point that my weight was a factor. After he left I fell into depression and dropped a considerable amount of weight, I got to 135 and was happy there and stayed there a couple years. After being single for 4 years I found a wonderful man and we've been together the last 5 years. Unfortunately I've been steadily gaining weight since we've been together. I'm now 171 and disgusted with myself. I know some of the reasons I got here... I started telecommuting fulltime and wore yoga pants so much I didn't realize NONE of my 'normal' clothes fit anymore. My father died 3 years ago- there was another 20 pounds of eating through my grief. And lately I have just been feeling lonely and isolated, the only person I have to talk to is my SO (he says I'm not THAT overweight) the kids and my grandmother. And what finally broke my spirit is the other day my grandma said to me "you should just get rid of all those clothes in your closet, your getting older and you're not going to lose those 50 pounds to ever fit in them again" I felt like crying but waited until I was alone to really let what she said sink in. I've tried many diets over the last couple years. Nutrisystem (didnt lose anything after being on it 3 months) weight watchers (didn't really relate to anyone in the meetings and didn't lose any weight, curves (actually gained 15 pounds the year I was there), HCG injections and 500 cal diet, lost a few pounds but gained it right back. anyways- sorry to make such a long first post, I'm just at the end of my rope and lately I feel like giving up and just wish I had someone to talk to about this.
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