I was doing really well when I was a senior in highschool to lose weight and get down to what the doctors consider a healthy weight. I went from a 13 my freshman year to a 5 my senior year in highschool- and was so close to a 3. I'm short with a large chest, so any extra weight suddenly makes me look much larger. And that has happened.
All my skinny jeans laugh at me, and to get revenge I crumpled them up in the floor of my closet. Most of my pants no longer fit, and my BMI has skyrocketed. What happened? I work out, and I walk everywhere... so what happened? I moved in with my boyfriend. We eat everything.
Because of school and distance, I have lost contact with friends. So now not only am I eating more (and more junk now), but I don't have the motivation to get out there and give it my all like I used to.
In two years I have seen my weight slowly go from 130, to a painful 155 on a 5''3 body. I can still get into my size 6's... but the squeeze is there now. I want to get back to 130, and even maybe go a little further and get to that 125 mark. I want to look good in my size 5's again, and get my legs back to shorts approved. But most importantly, I want to be happy again. This has taken a toll on me, and my love life- I need to get my motivation back.
Not only this- but next Spring my boyfriend, his father and myself are running a marathon kind of in celebration of him getting his health back. Two months later we are heading on a family trip to Florida then to Italy.. I want to look my best and be my best for all of this.
So I guess what I'm getting to- is I need that push. That person to be encouraging me along and asking how I'm doing. The people I talk to tell me not to worry, that the weight is fine... and yes, I guess it is.. but I'm not happy with my body anymore and I need someone that will understand that I'm not happy and give me the push, and I will give the push back.