College student needs motivation
Hey ya'll! I'm a 22 year old college student from Texas and I am set to graduate college in August. I have always dreaded summer time, I hate wearing shorts and I cannot stand being in a swimsuit. For once in my college life I want to have the self confidence to buy a cute 2 piece bikini and show it off at the lake, pool or beach. All of my friends like to attend pool parties and I have always made up some lame excuse why I can't go. During the summers, I skip out on lake trips with friends bc I am not comfortable with the way I look. After all of this, you would think I would have the motivation to change but I don't. I just get more and more depressed and its awful. I have been missing so much class lately because I am so self conscious that I fell as if everyone is judging me and thinking that I need to hit the gym. When I do make it to class I sit in the very last row and try to make myself invisible. Its horrible and I just wish that for once I could get the confidence and motivation to do something about my weight so I can have the normal college experience just 1 time before I graduate.
OH, and I am a bridesmaid in my friends wedding in April and I would LOVE to show all of those girls from high school that I can do it and lose the weight. My biggest fear is showing up at the weight I am at now, and having that constant fear in the back of my head that they are all judging me and thinking that I gained weight since high school. Even if they don't say anything, I still think that is all they are concerned about (almost seems conceited that I would think that they are only concerned about me, but it isn't in a good way. If only I thought they were thinking how great I looked...yeah right). I know that I have said my fair share of people I haven't seen in a while and I know that other people talk so I know that the roll could reverse and I could be that girl that everyone is talking crap about.
IF ANYONE CAN HELP ME WITH MOTIVATIONAL QUOTES OR ANYTHING PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE let me know. I am desperate for anything...
Last edited by texas12; 01-19-2010 at 11:54 AM.
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