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Join Date: Nov 2009
Location: DC Metropolitain Area (Northern VA)
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Height: 5'6"
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Getting my priorities straight before my wedding day!
So...here we go, my story.
I have a wonderful life, a beautiful long-distance romance, an amazing family, and a strong Faith.
I met my fiancé when I was 12, he was 14, on a forum for kids interested in stop motion animation. We survived highschool as homeschooled misfits together, with caring emails, and long phone calls. He supported me through the tumultuous journey from disconnecting myself from my biological father (an alcoholic, who had never had an active participation in my life, and despite that, decided to try come back into my life during my mid-teen years, and reconcile.), my mother's remarriage and the adjustment from having one brother, to being the oldest of six, and my cross-US move from the small Arkansas hometown I'd lived in for 16 years, to the outskirts of Washington DC. He came to visit me a few years ago, (from California to DC) and our first in-person visit was awkward, and honestly very disappointing. As I pulled away from the airport after that trip I cried my eyes out, wondering why there hadn't been the care and connection we'd maintained for so long through email, IM, and phone conversations.
We decided that it was just bad timing on many accounts, and gave it another shot a few months later...it was perfect. We've been together ever since, an are planning to get married in December of '10, or January of '11. I couldn't be more thrilled.
For the time being, I'm blessed to be living in the basement apartment of my parents house, as I pursue the things that I am passionate about, and work hard to build a financial structure and savings that our marriage can fall back on in hard times.
Job wise: I am an east coast photographer who also teaches children's cooking classes, designs things, tutors foreign students in conversational English, and will soon be selling pampered chef. I was honored to have one of my photographs featured in the Design Museum, London in January '09.
Family wise: I am the oldest of 6 crazy siblings (and the first graduate) in a not-so-traditional homeschool family. I actually like my parents.
The Rest: I am a daughter, sister, fiancé, companion, friend, listener, nurturer, photographer, culinary artist, painter, runner, and music-lover. I am an acquired taste. I'm crazy, artistic, loquacious, spiritual, passionate, intense, spontaneous, egotistic, bohemian, insecure, sarcastic, quirky and loyal.
I love traveling, learning, writing, blogging, dancing, yoga, movie-watching, lists, budgets, internet-dates with Nathan (when the real thing isn't possible), coffee, sushi, black tea, winter, paint, sketch pads, music, people, conversation, and collecting new hobbies. I always aspire to be more.
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So...the point of all of this. I'm not terribly overweight, but I am not healthy. I started out with about 40 lbs to lose, and am now down to about 30 left. I am so convicted that my #1 job in life, above all of my passions, is to be a stay at home wife, an (eventually) mom, which is why I work four jobs that allow me to be at home. My own mother, and Grandmother, are both very overweight and I see myself slowly losing ground and heading in that direction.
My weight has fluctuated back and forth by this ten pounds for the past year or so, often having to do with stress, and the emotional discontent of being 3000 miles away from my fiancé. At this point, we have not seen each other for 6 months. I am anxiously counting down the days to my trip to California in January, and am terrified of this next month and a half, because I'm already "off track" in my weight loss and need the accountability more than ever during the holidays. Despite the well-intentioned help of my family, and loving friends, my family is not willing to make the change towards a healthy lifestyle yet, and my friends are all very fit. No one around me understands the pressure I'm under, or the urgency I feel, to be in shape, and learn that lifestyle, so that upon entering my married life, and building our home, it is built on good, healthy habits that will be instilled in our children.
Today, I got my wedding dress in the mail. I took it out, and tried it on...and it was too small. Not VERY small, but small enough that, it doesn't zip. That pushed me over the edge, and now I am set that I need the accountability. I have to make this change, before my wedding, before building our life together, so that our life is built on healthy habits. I want to be healthy, and active, and around to see my great-grandchildren someday, and I feel that if I don't make this change now, it will be 10x harder to make later on in life.
I know that my story is ridiculous, an I have no right to complain. I ultimately would really just like to find someone in a similar situation, who would be willing to be a 1-on-1 email accountability partner. I feel like I have a lot of encouragement to give, and would love that daily or weekly check-in on how I've been doing that forces me to be honest, and keep up with things.
I guess that's all for now, hello all and good luck with your own journeys!
-Trill
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