Hello there, chicklets, and
I'm really glad you're here, because it seems like you need a bit of guidance. But first I have to play bad cop for a second (I'll go back to good...don't worry).
The only person who can motivate you, who can get you out of bed, who can plan your meals, who can get your body moving, who can make the behaviors happen that lead to long term success...the only person who can do that is you. This board is great for ideas, for inspiration, for meals, for asking questions and getting answers, but ultimately, the person who will drag you out of bed in the morning is YOU. This can be discouraging (How will I EVER manage to do all of that work MYSELF??) but also empowering when you reach your goals (Wow! Look what I did all by myself!)
So, where can you start? We have a "Depression and Weight Issues" forum for those who struggle with depression. I will say that, though depression makes it harder to get started on a fitness program, it REALLY motivates me to CONTINUE my program, because the depression symptoms are SO much better when I work out. We have the 100 lb club, a wonderful, supportive group for those who are on their way to losing or who have lost 100 lbs or more. We have any number of groups by eating plan or age range, so check those out.
For that extra motivation to push yourself you might look at some of our challenges and clubs, as well.
Wherever you settle, stick around. I'm so glad you've found us and can't wait to get to know you better!