Hi Dea, welcome!!! I'm from Ohio too, not far from you, and our starting weights are very similar! YOU CAN DO THIS. I'm sorry you had a lousy summer and lost your husband, but it sounds like you are already working to overcome that and now you're ready to work on YOU, and YOU are WORTH it. 2007 is YOUR year, girl! Have fun exploring the other threads, I spend alot of my time over in the challenge section, the WOW get your groove on thread, join us sometime! You're gonna love it here, pull up a seat, make yourself at home.