you are NOT a nutcase
You sound normal to me. It's hard to be overweight when society tells us we should be thin. I've felt like an outsider many times during my life.
What do I struggle with? For one thing, I'm not active enough. I'm a real bookworm and spend way too much time reading. I drive everywhere, even to the shops 3 blocks away. The foods I eat are pretty healthy, but then I get seconds, or eat leftovers late at night. That about covers it
My New Years Resolutions are to exercise more, and say no to second helpings. I think I need to find a hobby to keep me busy at night, so I don't get bored and dip into the leftovers. Maybe exercise would be a good hobby
What diet plan are you on? Do you count calories?