@AlaskanRn you are NOT not a failure, nor are you alone in your struggle with binge/emotional eating. I recall a quote that says "You can EXPERIENCE failure without BEING a failure." As long as we pick ourselves up after we fall, we can call these "failures" something else - bumps in the road to success.
You may have lapsed, but please be encouraged - you're not alone in your struggle and it doesn't mean your previous efforts were in vain. A LAPSE is falling off the wagon. A RELAPSE is falling off the wagon, again, maybe several times, after getting up on the wagon again. But a COLLAPSE - that is giving up completely. We all have lapses. And yes, every now and then, we even experience relapses (hopefully not too many!) But we don't have to make them collapses.
You're doing great!