Before i originally started on IP July 2012 i haven't weighed myself in 2 years.. and when i stepped on the sscale i was in shock (well not so much since my clothes were clearly small on me) that i had gained 30 lbs.. but that was a necessary step as being part of the program
i havent weighed myself since i lost the 30 lbs originally.. i know i probably gained most of it back .. (i started fresh this sunday) im in it to win it.. but this time im reluctant to get weighed i am soooo scared
even for physicals i usually ask my doctor to not reveal the number to me and just let me know if im at a healthy weight or not
my clinic allows me to purcahse food at night and i never see my 'IP lady' that way i avoid getting weighed..
does anyone else have that.. i am actually terrified of it.. it ruins my day looking at it .. unless it's a happy number ...
i dont kno what to do
i feel like its an important part of the program