Thank you for all your support. It is an amazing accomplishment to set out to change a behavior and actually do it. I cannot lie, there were days, many of them, where I was thinking about giving up and throwing in the towel. However, I stuck in out-largely because of this forum-. It was great to know that I was not the only person going through **** some days and to read others posts about achieving their goals made it worth sticking to.
I will say that since I am at goal a couple of weird reactions have occured. The first is that I am not celebrating achieving goal with food. Again, I can't lie and say that during phase 1 I wasn't planning on having a "nice" meal to celebrate when I got to goal weight. In fact, I was and was somedays downright fantasizing. Futhermore, in life all things seem to be done with food, and an excess of it at that, so it's surprising to see that I am reacting differently and know that this is not a fad diet but a serious lifestyle change. Secondly, I have literally stood on the scale for several minutes at a time. Get off, get on, get off, get on. It's like I can't beleive that I am where I am at. I also do this with the mirror. My husband thinks I am nuts but seriously, I think I look the same as if weigh 30lbs more. Strange.
Its a lot to take in because I thought for many years that I could never weight what I did when I felt my best. I thought, its only possible to loose 15lbs because thats where I plateaued with WW, exercise, etc. i have an adult body and I will never weigh what I did when I was 20.
IP changed that, and changed that FAST. In two months, I have been able to get where I am and it feels great but it will take some adjusting and some time to get used to.