'Ello from South Dakota (Newbie)
Hey all, figured I'd introduce myself formally...since I've been posting this last week but haven't actually said WHO I am...
My name's Kara, I'm a 27 year old corporate communication specialist, in South Dakota, married for 7 years with 4 beautiful...pets. We have 2 dogs, and 2 cats. I started my weight gain within about two years of marriage, packing on about 10 lbs per year until 2009 when I joined Weight Watchers, successfully lost about 20 lbs in 3 months, and then got a job as a 911 dispatcher, and promptly gained it all back, and then some. Fast forward to January 2012, I was at 185-ish, and DH and I found out we were preggers! So elated, so careful with what I was eating, didn't want to gain too fast for the little one. Started showing in March, and found out the baby wasn't going to make it on March 27th. A week later I had the removal done and was devastated. I was 204 lbs, depressed and feeling like life wasn't worth living.
My work "let me go" because my FMLA would have overlapped with my last day a full week early, so no extra paycheck. My new employer was super understanding however and said I could take as much time as I needed before coming to work. I started the Monday after the procedure, just to not be stuck in my house, and my own head 24/7. I was enjoying my new job, while depressed about the baby, and then went to see my doctor for a follow up at 2 weeks. She put me on Wellbutrin for the depression and told me basically to live life to the fullest, and that there was nothing I could have done. She also told me that it was time I start looking after myself physically to help me be able to get pregnant again next time.
One night DH and I were invited to dinner with his dad and step mom, who was on IP and had lost 20 lbs in 8 weeks. She looked amazing, and so did dad-inlaw! Turned out he was copying her plan, but using diet direct to order stuff and use that instead. I took a page from their book, decided it was worth it, no, I was worth it, and started IP-copycat last Monday (4-23-12) I had stopped eating carbs really the Saturday before, but eh, technically I wasn't on the proper shakes and such until Monday.
I am choosing to live life to the fullest, to be the me I feel inside, and drop this exterior of insulation that is hiding me from the world, and making me want to hide from the world's eyes.
I have roughly 60 lbs to lose (195 to 135) and dangit, I am worth it!