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ControlW 10-21-2012 04:44 PM

I did it! 65 pounds and 1 foot gone.
 
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It’s hard to believe that my weight loss journey has come to an end, and that I’m now beginning maintenance. It’s a bit weird, too, since there was not a distinct beginning to the process for me. I knew that I wanted to lose weight, but I kind of just slowly started doing so over the course of about a month and a half, but the goal was plainly and clearly met exactly today.

My journey began, I think, just after I had finished and defended my doctoral dissertation. I was feeling proud of myself for having competed such a huge task, and I was also relieved that the constant stress of the past three years had faded away. It was fantastic. But after I had finished cleaning my place (which I had neglected for far too long), a familiar feeling fell over me. I was content with my work and the career I had chosen, and I was content with my style and the comfort I had brought into my home, but I was not content with myself. I felt like I was surrounded by nice things, but that I myself was not a nice thing.

This feeling was familiar to me, and so I pushed it aside, but I also aware that my weight was increasing from staring at books and screens as well as from stuffing myself with way too much food so that I wouldn’t get hungry while I was working. Some days toward the end, my pants were too tight when I was sitting at my desk, and I would unbutton them to feel comfortable.

It slowly dawned on me that it was time to change things. The thought of being an ugly thing wouldn’t go away and that made me sad. I also felt bad that what I was doing to myself was making things worse. I didn’t want that any more, but I also knew that change would require effort, and I didn’t want that either. And so, I hemmed and hawed, but I eventually decided that I had to quit smoking. It seemed like quitting had to be the first step or all else would be for naught. I had quit before, for six months, and a couple of times for four months, and so I knew what I would be in for. I have to say it took a lot to get started. I blew past my planned quit date about three times before I actually threw the cigarettes away. As I look back, I’m honestly not sure how I actually quit. In retrospect it seems like it was a leap of faith.

Needless to say, as I quit I gained some weight, but it was about two months later when I had realized just how much. The dissertation weight and the quitting weight had put me at 229 pounds, and that feeling of not being a nice thing intensified. My niece’s baptism was at around this time, the beginning of February, and I was chosen to be the godfather, and so there were lots of pictures taken, and I felt ashamed. It was also on this very weekend where my best friend for the past ten or so years told me that he was diabetic. He had always been bigger than me, and so in one sense it wasn’t a surprise to hear, but in another, I was absolutely shocked. “There but for the grace of God go I,” I said, and I meant it. For some reason, I have always been afraid of diabetes. I’m not sure why but it’s always given me the heebie jeebies. I was scared.

So I went to the doctor, who over the course of a week or so, drew some blood and did some other tests and told me that I wasn’t diabetic (or even pre-diabetic), but that I had extraordinarily high cholesterol and blood pressure. So, March was when the actual weight-loss journey began. I began doing yoga, and found that I liked it. And I went a lot, about three times a week. I was constantly sore at the beginning, especially from the boat sit-ups (navasana), to the point where I couldn’t sit up in bed. To sit up, I had to bend myself into an “L” while lying on my side and then rotate myself to vertical. That lasted for weeks and weeks. But the instructors were encouraging, and I kept going.

I also changed my diet, but this was slow process, because food is expensive and I wanted to eat what I already had, even if it was bad for me, so that I wouldn’t waste it. Over the course of about three weeks, I started eating salads and vegetables and fruits, and I cut out fast food (which before I had eaten about four times a week), fried food, and most prepared desserts. A bit more slowly, I got rid of most refined grains. Eventually, I ran out of the unhealthy foods, and I was quite content to eat healthier, at least most of the time.

It was at this point that I found this web site. And I found it to be full of helpful information and motivational success stories, and I came here to renew and strengthen my commitment to changing myself. Most of the time, it’s pretty easy, but sometimes it’s just not, and this site helps keep me on track.

Sometime in the summer, I decided that it might be a good idea to go to the gym to vary up my exercise a bit. So I found a personal trainer, and he devised a routine for me, but that ended up not working, since I hurt my back doing lat pulls about a week later. Even now it still hurts. This really annoys me because it cost a lot of money and has had a fairly lasting injury. It seems like the gym was all for naught. I fear that my back will be ruined for life, and frankly that makes me a bit angry.

I kept up the yoga and the diet (and the misguided gym time) from March until about September when I had to leave Santa Barbara and the routine that I had become familiar with, and I moved to Iowa.

Keeping in a good routine here in Iowa has been rough, but I’ve been doing okay. The yoga here isn’t convenient to my schedule, so I’ve been doing a lot of cardio, which I don’t like so much, but I’ve been trying to keep things varied. I have to remind myself that I did not figure out my old routine right way either. But I have to say while my weight loss has slowed some, it didn’t stop, and today is the first day where I can officially say that I have met my goal.

I am very proud of myself for that. I’m sometimes not even sure that it’s myself that I’m looking at in the mirror. And, while it’s a bit vain, I look at myself in the mirror a lot, both clothed and naked. I’m down about 65 pounds, lighter than I’ve ever been since college. My waist is 35 inches, down an entire foot, and smaller than I can ever remember. My cholesterol and blood pressure are back in normal range. I haven’t had any cigarettes for the past ten months, which is 10,000 less that I would have otherwise had. I smell better, and I feel much better, and I finally believe that I am one of the nice things that I have.

I’m very worried about heading into maintenance, partly because I’m wary about changing a lifestyle and diet that has worked for me and partly because I don’t know if I actually can maintain, but as of now I’m so proud that I did it. And I’d rip of my shirt and strut down the street right now if I were bold enough.

Thanks to all of you at 3FC for all your support. I am sincerely grateful, and I am always willing to return that gratitude to anyone who needs help.

bigprettymomma 10-21-2012 05:00 PM

You look amazing!

chickpeas 10-21-2012 05:03 PM

Congratulations on reaching your goal! well done

bargoo 10-21-2012 06:55 PM

Congratulations ! You might like Living Maintenance forum, it's all about keeping it off after losing it.

Borgie 10-21-2012 07:18 PM

Great Job my man. Feels so good when you finally reach that goal doesn't it?

theox 10-21-2012 08:21 PM

Congratulations ControlW! :carrot::carrot::carrot: You've accomplished a lot! And you look pretty sharp. Have you been over to the Maintainers' threads?

LucyRic 10-21-2012 10:55 PM

Congrats! You've done a fantastic job!

treesa76 10-22-2012 12:00 AM

wow!! good job!! :)

xRiotGirl 10-22-2012 12:12 AM

Very awesome, CONGRATULATIONS!! :)

baker23 10-23-2012 03:41 PM

You've accomplished so much and you look great. So healthy and happy. Best of luck with maintaince :)

1987 10-23-2012 03:45 PM

Well done :D and thank you for sharing the story of your weight loss journey.

You look great, such a difference. Best of luck with maintenance.

ControlW 10-23-2012 08:39 PM

Thanks everyone for all our kind words and for all your help over the past year or so! Let me know if there’s anything else you’d like to know. I know that left off my actual weight-loss plan to focus on the emotional aspects.

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Originally Posted by bargoo (Post 4504651)
Congratulations ! You might like Living Maintenance forum, it's all about keeping it off after losing it.

That’s where I’m going now. Thanks for the heads up.

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Originally Posted by Borgie (Post 4504673)
Great Job my man. Feels so good when you finally reach that goal doesn't it?

I’ve followed your story for a while now. You have truly done something amazing. I think I’m going to follow you and go skydiving, too. But not until spring.

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Originally Posted by theox (Post 4504724)
Congratulations ControlW! :carrot::carrot::carrot: You've accomplished a lot! And you look pretty sharp. Have you been over to the Maintainers' threads?

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Originally Posted by bigprettymomma (Post 4504550)
You look amazing!

I don’t think anyone’s called me good-looking in ages. I think I might like that. :)

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Originally Posted by 1987 (Post 4506702)
Well done :D and thank you for sharing the story of your weight loss journey.

I’m glad you appreciate it!

Felicia86 10-24-2012 02:13 AM

Well done, you look great!! you are definitely inspiring :)

roxybabay 11-10-2012 11:24 PM

Awesome, you look great! :)

bigmomma 11-11-2012 08:55 PM

Congrat's..........there's a whole world out there just waiting for ya!!!


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