A thank you,
For the most part I have been a silent browser of these forums. I have watched people reach their goals or not, but maintain hope that they will.
I was told 4 years back that a combination of my weight plus my diabetes and newly added complications of gyn-cancer was going to kill me before I hit 45. I was 40/41 at the time... and very scared. My husband is a trucker and a cheat, kept leaving me for these random teenage - to mid-20's girls who told him they loved him, he believed it, for 14 years I battled with myself trying to believe that in the end he would always come home to me. I completely lost sight of who I was. I indulged in candy and chocolate to fix the hatred I felt in myself, I ballooned to over 300lbs. Hubby always did come "home" to me, but only after the latest girl in question dumped him. Me and my love handles was always there to welcome him back.
After my doc told me, diet or die, I took notice. I was ashamed, 2 insulin shots a day, 6 pills, eating hershey bars like they were going out of fashion, blood sugar count no lower than 300 each time I tested and that led to being asleep most of the day because it was easier to deal with, sleep off my sugar rush, gain a few lbs, buy clothes 2-3x and basically live in a mu-mu.
Well, I didn't follow any kind of "diet plan", I made one myself, I used the lance armstrong "my plate" webpage to track my calories and I put myself on a 1000-1100 a day diet. 2 years later I just weighed in at 135lbs, bought my first pair of size 4 jeans and donated all my other clothes to goodwill. My husband is still a cheat, currently seeing a gal in louisiana ( also one in NJ and another in CA), but he can't believe the changes in me and keeps telling me he wants to come back and be "my guy" which incidentally my answer is "**** no!"
My weight loss and goal reaching is ALL thanks to the many people on this website, because of all of you I have managed to find a new"me" and a new life that is insulin and pill free, contains no pain in my feet or loss of sensation, I cured myself and I seem to have abated my diabetes for the next few years. I turn 43 on Oct 5th and on that day I will be spending it with my best friend of 12 years swimming with dolphins in San Diego and I will NOT be ashamed of my body or myself in ANY way! I thank you ALL for giving me a new life that I can be proud of.
Picture to follow of before and latest... and a scan of my lawyers intent to alimony the **** out of my my soon to be ex husband!
