I still can't believe I went a year without a chocolate bar!!
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So today I've decided to add to this 'description of me'. I've been over weight most of my life, in fact right now at my maintenance weight, I'm in Grade 7. I remember being in health class and having to weigh myself in front of two of my friends and I was mortified to be 162. I was a size 18 when I graduated high school. I ballooned up to my highest weight of 313 which was in a doctor's office so who knows how high I actually got but I remember sitting down and crying right there.
I don't know why I let myself get that far up, does anyone really know 'why'?? Guaranteed I was in denial...sometimes when I watch hoarders I actually feel a sense of understanding. I almost felt overwhelmed and didn't know where to start so why start at all. Going to the gym I could do but then when you go 19-20 times in a month you see nothing for your efforts it's frustrating.
I was at the end of my rope and was starting to seriously consider surgery. I am highly scared (from past history) of surgery and how I respond to it. I knew I wasn't interested in gastric bypass, I've had friends that have had it and I've seen the scars (free for me where I live with insurance but would have to wait 2 years). WAY to scarey for me, I found out that I could have the lap band surgery but would have to pay for it myself. I spent 1 hour trying to figure out how to pay for lap band surgery ($17000 -
). My BFFL gave me the soup n@zi finger and said "listen here, you've worked hard and I'll grant you that, but you haven't worked hard for long enough". Approximately three months earlier my mom in her careful and gentle way had mentioned the Ideal Protein Diet (she'd lost 40 lbs on it). I decided I would try Ideal Protein first (although expensive less then $17000) and if it didn't work then I'd re-consider the surgery option. The cost of Ideal Protein is 'HIGH' but again I was willing to pay $17000 if I could. But because it was so expensive I said "self, give this a good shot, you are not allowed to consider surgery unless you give it 110%" So I went on it, originally decided I would be on it for 8 months. When I hit 8 months I thought "ok, well! you've come this far why not finish it".
I started IP on the 19 of April (as a birthday present) and hit my goal on the 18 April (my Birthday). That was AMAZING....and now I'm 'maintaining'.
I didn't get rid of my 'big' clothes right away. I kept them all and when I hit goal I started to sell them off $1-$7 dollars at a time (using a facebook group in my community). I sold enough clothes to pay for my sapphire goal ring which I now use as a measurement tool. If it's tight on my finger I have work to do. Also, love that it's on my right hand, which is the hand that I eat with, so it's always right there in front of me.
There isn't much difference between losing weight and maintaining for me, I'm still as neurotic
But I refuse to forget what it was like to be 313 lbs and I never EVER want to go there again."If you don't look after your body, where will you live?" - Kobi Yamada
#1 -12.7 #2 -5.1 #3 -4.2 #4 -2.2 #5 -4.6 #6 -5 #7 -2.2 #8 -4.2 #9 -1.2 #10: -3.8 #11 - 5.6 #12 -.2 #13 -3.5 #14 -1.2. #15 -3 #16 -2.2 #17 -3.2 #18 -3.8 #19 -2.3 #20 -1.6 #21 -3 #22 -2.4 #23&24 -5 #25 -2.4 #26 -2.6 #27 -2 #28&29 -4.8 #30 -1 #31 -4 #32 -1.2 #33 -4 #34 -2.2 #35 -.2 #36 -2.6 #37 -2.6 #38 -2.4 #39 -1.6 #40 -2.2 #41 -1.4 #42 -1.4 #43 0 #44 0 #45 -6.8 (P2) #46 NoWI (P3) #47 (vaca) #48 -1.4 #49 -2.4 #50 -1.6 #51 -2 #52 -3.2 (GOAL!)
Started IP - 19 April 2011
Hit Goal -18 April 2012
Started Phase 2 -19 April 2012 (lost 0)
Started Phase 3 - 3 May 2012 (lost 5)
Started Maintenance - 17 May 2012
