I was experiencing this just last night...I was telling my SIL about my binge yesterday, crying and admitting to her I had been bulimic again in January and am on the verge of going "there" again and she was all sympathetic and told me she was here for me and then she pulls out a peach cobbler and says "You want some of this its sooo good" I got sooo upset. This was at 10pm and about 10 minutes after I told her about my binge and all that I had eaten in the day (about 4000 cals no kidding
) and then she pulls it out like its no big deal, I said "no thanks, my stomach is close to exploding now I think its full enough"
I guess its not a big deal for her though because she is 5'3" and weighs close around 225 and says 1 thing about her weight problem....1: "I am eating what I want when I want how I want because I have the insurance approval for liposuction and a tummy tuck and I am just saving the money to pay my part so WHY should I TRY to lose the weight...I will worry about that after my surgery"
This upset me considering she is that heavy and has a thyroid problem because of the weight. She should be trying to lose the weight NOW for her health
but instead she is eating unccaringly and offering a person with a known ED the equivalent of drugs....I feel like NO ONE understands that thinking "just one bite" "just one serving" "oh come on its just one day" puts me in a dark place, a darkness I can't always fight my way out of until it becomes an uncontrollable 4000 cal binge.
WOw sorry for the vent...I am so glad I found this site though so I have people around that UNDERSTAND!! Yes I am 142 pounds and most would be happy with that...its not the number that I am fighting though...its the ED and if I stay around 125-130 it isnt there in my head..when I get around 138-142 thats when the demon shows its head in my brain and takes control.