I was just thinking about how much of my time/effort/money/resources/life I've spent focused on the size of my belly/butt/thighs, or how seriously I considered what I thought other people thought of me due to my size, plus everything I've done over the years to manage it all...what a monumental focus of energy and resources!
I'm in the middle of shifting where I want to go with my life. Not sure just where yet, but I will not spend another moment working towards getting all my ducks in a row before I do something that I really want to do!
I am eating the way I want, the way I plan to eat for the rest of my life. I have found what I love to do for fitness. It's how I roll now. I think it's very balanced and healthy for me, so I don't have to put much thought into tweaking it any more. If I can't lose another ounce from the way I choose to live now, then this is maintenance.
It's time for me to put a lot more focus on things I actually want to achieve, beyond losing weight. Losing weight is not a legacy to leave to my children. Losing weight does not define who I am. Healthy and vibrant are terms by which I choose to be defined. Fun-loving and spirited. Grounded and spiritual. Loving and warm.