we have been trying to have a baby for 2 years with no luck. every time i get my period i sit in the bathroom and cry. i know it sounds dramatic, but its true. every time it happens i know that this is not the month that i get pregnant, and it truly breaks my heart a little more every time.
i got my period a couple days ago, had my usual private sob fest, and logged onto facebook later that evening.
it just so happened that 3 of my friends had announced that day that they are expecting. one of them with twins no less.
i know that it will happen eventually, and i know that 'once you stop trying it will happen' but when you want a baby as much as we do, and have been trying for so long, 'not trying' doesnt really come easily.
i am frustrated, and sad. i want to have a family with my husband so badly, and it seems like its never going to happen. i have 30 more pounds to lose before we are going to the fertility specialist, but i am terrified that i will get bad news (like we CANT get pregnant)
sorry, just needed to vent.