Need to let out a little poof of steam.
So, I started my new program at school this week. Already it's clear that I need to now learn 4 years of time management skills that I never managed to pick up during the gen ed portion of my degree, because this program is ROUGH. Like, sleeping over in the classrooms, up till 6 am, crying over projects (oh so many projects) and not sleeping rough. I'm also scared to death because I am a HORRIBLE procrastinator and although I'm good at what I do, I rarely do things on time. I'm extremely stressed and scared, and on top of that I'm having a bout of low self-esteem that is making the adjustment process pretty hard. I suppose the stress of school/self image/dieting is just eating away at me now...and with tomorrow being my weigh in day, I'm honestly afraid of what my day is going to be like. I've eaten well, exercised a handful of times and kept up healthy habits so I SHOULD have lost, but I feel like a week with no shift, on top of all this stress, is going to send my weekend into a nosedive of sadness.
Anywho, I just had to get that out of my head. I know things will get better...I'm just trying to keep from getting completely down on myself.