I don't want to be a Debbie Downer but, so much has happened since I started to loose wight April 18th. I am a little overwhelmed and need a place to vent.
~ Lots of general anxiety about the process.
This group kick my Butt-er, thank Goodness.
~ The 3rd week of May I visited family in California. My father asked for help/support regarding his drinking problem. One day later when he brought up the subject he became angry because I talked about taking sobriety one day at a time. He did not like the words I used and I discovered he was not ready to be helped. My post trip recovery was a tough one.
My step-mom, bothers and sister are amazing people and are learning how to deal. I love them very much!
~ The 4th week of May was a visit from a crazy Aunt and every part of my diet plan was critiqued (she has lost 100+ and gained it back). Happy B-Day to me!
It was fairly easy to ignore her negativity. I felt like I was on the right track.
~ The 2nd week of June the son of a good friend died suddenly.
I have been there to support her and our walks and conversation have been healing for both of us.
~ The 3rd week of June I was subjected to frenemy drama. This has been long brewing and cut particularly deep this time.
New friends have recently appeared. I know that eventually I will figure out a way to neutralize the relationship.
~ The 4th week of June my mother verbally attacked my husband and I.
Reality it had nothing to do with us.
~ 1st week of July my mother left abruptly because my Step-Father confronted her about drinking and asked her to seek counseling. On July 4th 6 years ago she had a serious suicide attempt. As a family we have tried to move on but, this time of year is often filled with anxiety.
I had wanted to ask my Mother to go to counseling with me because our relationship has been rocky. Her drinking was not at the top of my list. But, I knew she would not be receptive and I decided to approach the subject later when I could handle a negative reaction. I am so glad I took a pause because, she would have freaked out on me. As of this morning I know she is safe but, not ready for help.
~ My husbands mother has tried to make amends via Facebook last week and this week she called us when drunk. I have not responded, except to tell her I got the message. She is not ready to hear why I don't trust her and why I will never allow her to have a unsupervised relationship with my girls.
She live far away and my husband and I agree how to handle her. We both know that she not in a healthy place.
I do have a great (in real life) support system. However, this all seems too much.