ok so i've been posting alot about how excited i am about moving into our first house. we have picked out our house, just need the ok from the bank for the loan. i think it will go through. assuming it will, and getting ready to move now. if the deal falls through, we'll be moving to another house soon.
so today i was trying to figure out why i was feeling so moody. what is wrong? as i said, new car(new to us), new body i've lost almost 50#. at my lowest weight in close to 10 years. new house- it even looks new inside with lots of updates: new carpet, fresh paint, new flooring, huge backyard....on and on. almost everything we want in a house and a real deal for the price it is. but....
why do i hear myself telling myself i don't deserve THAT nice of a house? i think this is that same mentality that kept me in the same very limited wardrobe. because i don't deserve to buy new clothes untill i've lost alot of weight. now i feel like i can buy clothes, but i guess sometimes i'm still dealing with the low self-esteem. at the same time, i'm very excited to move. the apt we are living in feels more and more like a hole in the wall. the same apt i was so happy to move IN to 4 years ago. it's really all in my head, and relative.
i wonder if others are having issues adjusting to your new life after weightloss, a move etc?