Is it just me, or does social networking, for all of its good attributes, sometimes complicate relationships and love?
So, my ex and I were both on one of the larger social networking sites. He would rarely email me from that site because he said he just didn't log on much, plus, we were seeing each other every day, so what would be the point, right? It didn't bother me much as I stopped going to that site once we were in a relationship.
Well, after we broke up I found out that he was on another social networking site. He just added me as a friend. The weird thing is that he was on that site for a few months, but never looked me up or added me, etc., even though he knew I was on it. Weird. It makes me feel like he didn't want me to know.
This brings up a lot of issues because he did, a couple of times, send someone an inappropriate text, and that messed with our trust issues. Also, the way we broke up I felt like he was trying to move out for a while, but he kept saying he wasn't, until the day that we had a talk and he said he needed his space. He didn't really have to move much of anything at that point.
It just makes me feel very vulnerable and doubting...like he had been planning to leave for a while. I feel hurt because while I do understand that we may not just be the right people for each other, I feel like I did so much for him, and was so patient and trying to be so understanding, and yet, it just wasn't enough to keep us together, and he either preferred living with his roommate, or someone else. I do sometimes wonder if he made other friends and realized that I wasn't someone he wanted to be with for the long haul, ya know?
Just sort of upsetting.