Whether you dance, make speeches, or anything else, I would love some help!
So I used to have terrible stage fright when I was in Musical Theatre from 3rd-10th grade, and for some reason I kept getting "major" roles. (of course forgetting my lines...) I still have nightmares about being in "Annie" and everyone else remembers their lines from 10 years ago but me... Ugh!
Anyhoo-- When I rejoined ID when I was 15, I was super confident because I was one of the only people who knew the dances (for the most part) in the Beginner class. I was a total ham, and loved it!
Then we started to get opprotunities to go to competitions and perform, and I panicked again, and decided I didn't want to participate (I always regretted this).
About 2-3 years ago I started working at Gymboree Play & Music where I led Parent/Child play classes-- I had to memorize lesson plans, songs, and perform all of it with the best of attitude! and I LOVED it! I got little panic attacks every once in a while, but I was able to control it, so it wasn't a huge deal...
I haven't worked there for a year, and there seems to be no way I can get myself hired back
I've been just fine until the end of March, where we did a recital performance (with all of our choreography from St. Pat's, so it shouldn't have been a big deal), and I just panicked... I was shaking, dry mouth, heart fluttering like mad.... I still went out there and did the choreography, but EVERYONE in the group noticed that something was off with me (which inevitably meant that the audience noticed something..).
Now, even just showing a step in class is panicking me... And I'm getting really tired of it But I can't seem to figure out a way to stop it!
I'm in a group that performs TONS, and I'm thinking of going back to competitions soonish, so this isn't a "habit" that is going to help my goals for next year!