I don't know if this is the right place to put this and I guess this may not seem as bad to you as it does to me as it's not a human death but rather a cat. I've been working with numerous animal rescues since I was 11. Fostering cats and dogs alike but mostly cats because of city laws about only having 2 dogs living at the residence at any one time. Anyways, in about 8 hours I have an appt for one of my adopted foster cats to be put to sleep. Her name is Rica and we've had her about 4 years now. She is about 13 yrs old and one of the sweetest cats in the world, even with her drooling. I know a lot about animals and I know that she's ready to go, and has been getting ready to go for a while now (all of her weight dropped from her bones and now is in her belly, she's bloated, and dehydrated, pretty much the same as any other old cat getting ready for a death bed). I've been pumping her with fluids, and doing everything I know to do but in the end mother nature is taking it's course. This whole thing has been racking my emotions but now that it's coming to an end, it isn't any better. At least having her alive means there's hope but when she's gone there isn't any hope. Anyways, I've been struggling since I made the appt. this past afternoon, trying not to eat, I even skipped walking my dogs today, and I need to get past this because I know if I can continue to exercise and eat healthy, I'll get over this a lot faster. Thank you for any support or advice.
I know there is nothing I can say to make this any easier, but I'm so sorry! Our beloved dog has congestive heart failure . . . the vets don't know how much time he has left, but sometimes when I look at him or think about him I just start crying. I don't know if this will make you feel any better, but think of all the wonderful time you have had with your cat--how lucky you were to have her in your life and how lucky she was to find a home with you. Her life has been so blessed by your love and vice versa. I hope you make it through this rough time okay.
The tree that bears the fruit
is not the one that is planted.
- W.S. Merwin
I am so sorry , I undersatand how painful that is. I am a dog person and when the vets office reccommended euthanasia my knees literally buckled and I grabbed unto the counter for support. There is nothing to compare with the devotion and loyalty we get from our pets.
I wish I had advice for you, Chevy. I know how hard it is. You are donig the right thing for her by not prolonging her suffering. It is a very, very sad thing to lose a pet, they are really members of the family. They're with us through everything and see us at our best and at our worst. Take comfort in the fact that you've given her a wonderful, loving life for which I am sure she is eternally grateful.
I'm thinking of you and Rica this afternoon.. hang in there.