I moved about a week ago, 3 days before i had originaly planned to. The day i left, my boyfriend helped me pack my stuff and load the moving vehical. He was very disheartend and extreamly sad. I could sense his pain even though he tried not to show it. He did keep telling me that he didn't want me to go. It wasn't until about 7 hours before i was about to leave until i realized that this guy actually does care about me very much. I have had a few serious boyfriends in my past, but never have i felt this way. It actually scared me at first, but now it feels so right. He is the first guy who i felt comfortable enough to fall asleep in his lap. I had always been too unsetteled about my past guys to do that. I slept there for 2 hours while he and my mother talked about their lives. My mom even pointed out that i have never been very trusting with guys until him. I felt safe and like if the world was going to end, then right there was where i wanted to be. Before i left he gave me his class ring, along with a 3 stone promise ring(which i had apprased at over $300! I wouldn't have cared if it was a gumball machine ring though!) Thirty minutes before i left, he broke into tears, although he tried to be strong. Unlike many fakers i have encountered in my past, i felt he was sincere. I could almost feel his heart breaking. He again reassured me that he would wait for me, no mattter how long it takes for me to come back. I talk to him on the phone many times a day, with him telling me how much he misses me and that he is going to come see me, he already bought the train ticket.
I have met many people in my life that have been fake with me, and made empty promises to me, but i have never beieved someone as much as i believe him. I know some of you reading this are thinking that i am only trying to see the good in this guy hopeing that i am not wrong about him, that i am blind to his true nature. Actually i have done a few tests unknown to him, such as strait off telling him ALL of serious problems, and telling him ALL of my past mistakes. In telling him everything about me, he opened up his life story, and became VERY close to my parents in trying to get close with my whole family so that they see that he's not like anyone in my past. My parents actually approve of him VERY much, even knowing the fact that he is a few years older then me. My father(a cop) ran a background check on him, finding out everything about him posible. He has honerable discharge from the army with several medals for bravery, he has never comitted a crime, not even a small traffic violation. He owns his own place, and has the job and education to support himself very well for the rest of his life.
Anyway, i havn't felt this way about a guy before in my life not even my ex who i thought i was going to marry next year. I love him. I was unsure before, but now i know i do for a fact, and those are not just lonely words talking, those are words from a heart in love. Thank you for all of your posts, and advice.