Hey there, Your story sounds very similar to mine. I'm currently at 149lbs and 5"2. I've never been much lower than 128lb, but I feel good at that weight as I think I'm naturally quite muscular and large boned. I'm trying to deal with a lot of body hate at the moment - feeling terrible about myself... Trying desperately at the moment to bring myself down to a healthier weight. My weight really creeps up in times of stress or when I get out of routine. I have a bit of a mini goal because I'm off on a beach holiday in July for three weeks. I know that you can't achieve too much in three months, but I can at least use it for motivation and hopefully feel a bit better about myself. I've set a goal to loose 1 lb per week, which should take me to about 135lb in July. It seems doable, but right now, at week number 1, I am feeling very down about it. I joined up at the gym and doing those classes, surrounded by mirrors, I am really confronted with just how big I look - I never think of myself as big - the mirrors are showing me the truth! Hopefully, in the next few months, looking after myself by exercising daily and trying to cut out a lot of the sugary stuff - even if I don't make that goal, I will be feeling better....I'm not sure how brave I feel right now about posting a picture - might need to work up the courage.