Doughnut - so sorry for you and your friend's lost. When I say I understand I really do. I lost my father the same way and it changed my life. I can feel such pain for the family because now I am a mother and I worry about my own children and grandchildren everyday.
Let me just say that you will learn to live with the saddest but it will always be a part of your memory. Remember to say I love you to your family and friends often.
Yes, you were missed. We do get used to seeing the same names on the website and I always wonder where they are when I don't see them for awhile. Sometimes people just read and don't post. It is good to know that we can reach out and help others across the air waves and that we can find some comfort when we need it.
Sometimes when I really don't feel like posting --- I always feel better when I let it out. I guess that why people pay big bucks to go to therapy - and here we help each other for free.
One day at a time doughnut -