hi everybody,
so here's my deal. in the last year i've gained almost 20 lbs. i quit smoking so there was a combination of my metabolism slowing dramatically and me not really caring because, hey, i had quit smoking! but now it's been a year since i've quit and instead of feeling great i feel terrible because of all this weight i've gained. i have a really small frame and am just shy of 5'1, so 20 lbs really shows.
i get discouraged for a number of reasons. firstly, with all the weight i've gained i weigh 125 lbs.so a lot of people in my life don't understand why i'm unhappy with that weight since the actual number is fairly small. but it sucks. it's the upper end of 'normal' in the bmi scale, but it's this constant gain that hasn't stopped. so if i keep going at this rate, it will become a much bigger problem. but for me it already is. i don't fit into my clothes, am absolutley spilling out everywhere. my self-esteem has plummetted. i'll catch glimpses of myself in a window reflection and it takes me a minute to recognize it as myself. like i've somehow stepped into this whole other body.
i also get discouraged at how hard it is for me to lose, and how easy to gain! case in point: at 1500 cals/ day with moderate exercise, i will still gain weight. both in lbs and measurements. i guess it's due to having such a small frame, but i find it hard.
anyways, i'm sorry for all the rambling. i'm really excited to be on here and taking charge of my situation. i was looking for any kind of advice anyone has about how i should go about doing this!