I've slipped a bit over the latter half of last week (more on the exercise part, I was just very sore all over and generally fatigued, so wasn't up to my usual vigorous aerobics & weight lifts). I hope to get back in the groove this week, starting with eating right today & exercising tomorrow (still feeling sore & lethargic today.)
Alinnel, I'm cheating with the Campbell's select version in a can (and not even the "Low Sodium" variety either, I tried that once and that was super bland!) ~ I'm adding extra mixed greens to make it a bit healthier, however.
I still feel like a fraud though. I went to a gathering about a week ago and walked in the room and realized that not only was I not "one of the chubby girls" in the room, that probably there were a few people looking at ME as a "thin girl"
It is going to take quite some time before my brain can associate myself as anything but "a little overweight" which is where I was most of my life . (On the flip side when I was 184 and obese I still thought I was just "a little overweight")
Alinnel, I'm cheating with the Campbell's select version in a can (and not even the "Low Sodium" variety either, I tried that once and that was super bland!) ~ I'm adding extra mixed greens to make it a bit healthier, however.
That's okay! I cheat too!. I just checked my "stash" here at work and mine is the Campbells Select! I buy the microwaveable ones that are supposed to be about 2 servings, but I usually eat the whole thing! They may be high in sodium but at least they aren't terrible in the calorie department!
So, yesterday was a good day and a bad day. A close family friend passed away in the morning, and I was a weeping mess for most of the day. I ate a veggie burrito and chips, and queso @ Moe's, and unlike my usual self I ate the ENTIRE thing and was then kind of surprised - as was my bf who never sees me eat "close to half" of anything. It was like I had a hole inside and I tried to toss food in there to fill it up - but food doesn't really help guilt.
I haven't done the best job today either, in fact , but have made much better choices since yesterday. I'm still sort of in shock to be honest. I also got back a lot of blood work testing from m y doctor and the bad news weight loss wise is that I can't be eating fewer than 1400 calories pretty much no matter what - otherwise I start losing my hair which really stinks. Obviously of healthy foods. I can lose the rest of those calories through daily exercise if I choose, according t o her. When I told her I had been eating 1200 calories or so she was kinda upset and said that was way too restrictive nutrient wise and after hair analysis and trying to determine why I keep getting sick that seems to be the consensus among the three doctors.
So; my new goal is to actually do some exercise each day, (yesterday I did awesome at swing dance - really danced my butt off!), and to cut the amount of sugar and desserts from my daily calories (yes, even with 1200 calories, I managed to eat dessert and just much less actual food ). My boyfriend goes to the Y, and I now have a friend who is starting up water aerobics there... so I may become a member, join her and do water aerobics a few times per week.
I am also setting a weight loss goal of five pounds for this month! I can do it!!!
*less sugar (dessert once/week - planning!!)
*keep counting calories, try not to be too restrictive and make sure I'm getting varieties of foods and not just the ones I know the calories of - use other ways of measuring "the rule of 10" for small things , "the rule of five" for bigger things, and the "fits in your hand" rule.
*daily weighing
* exercise each day for twenty minutes - even if it's sit ups and yoga in my own living room.
I get to weigh on the scale that had me at 143 (not my home scale) in two weeks. My goal is to be in the 130's on that scale by then - even with a vacation weekend and easter in between.
It feels good to write it all out!
Maybe the weirdest thing is all the compliments I'm getting when I feel like I'm really stuck hovering around the weight I'm at and wanting to lose another 15 pounds.
Going to need to eat more of these guys
Last edited by YuppieGirlie; 04-02-2007 at 04:16 PM.
Just one busy couple of days and I miss so much!! There are a lotta Featherweights compared to 6 months ago
Hahaha: I love this and how it's completely infiltrated this thread.
I am happy that you're here, Ennay, I like your posts! I always recognize them. Welcome.
Yuppiegirlie -- I'm sorry that your having such a hard time it must feel wretched. Going up to 1400 calories isn't that bad, it's not as though you're going to completely stall or something like that -- 1400 is still not many at all!! Don't get too caught up on it, you need to keep your hair
Also, what makes something a wedding soup? I mean, I assume it was originally served at weddings, but what's in it that makes it special? I stay away from soups usually because of the sodium, sometimes I get 'em, though.
Last night my friend and I made dinner at her house, we had wraps with tons of veggies and chicken breast, homemade sweet potato fries, and this chocolate cake that was so ridiculously gooey it made me feel guilty. MMMMMMMM....I will remember it fondly. I can't wait till I am living at home again and can cook. My dad is picking me up a week Wednesday!!! AHHHHH!!
I still need to get a plan in order, but I noticed something strange today.
I think my body is rejecting the fat still on it. Now that I'm exercising more and my muscles are becoming more defined, the excess fat just kind of hangs and looks ridiculous on me. It's time to say adios, fat!
Italian wedding soup has spinach and meatballs. I think (can't remember) that there is a little pasta, too. It's in a broth. I also like minestrone. Oh, and clam chowder, but that isn't diet friendly at all!
Glad to say I made it through the day without mindless snacking OR a glass of wine!
So two days of April down, and three days of classes left for me. Crazy.
I have a confession: My eating hasn't been great. I feel like I should feel guilty, but I don't. And oddly enough that makes me happy. Maybe it's because for so much of my teen/young adult life I've struggles with seriously disordered eating, and a horrible relationship with food.
And right now, I'm eating pretty well... I'm not binging, nor am I starving, and I'm not being restrictive. Still there is a small voice saying "you aren't dieting very well you HAVE to lose weight! feel GUILTY, feel VERY GUILTY."
Am I crazy for feeling like that?
Other than that I'm doing well. It's been so sunny here that I'm exercising pretty much everday for over an hour. And I am eating veggies by the bushel full so I figure that cancels out the goodies I have indulged in.
All this talk of soup is making me want to make a delicious veggie soup. I'll have to tell my roomie to get some veggie broth... hmmm.
Ennay, WELCOME to the board. Congrates on your loss so far! Looking forward to chatting.
Sweet_Talker, you are so lucky to be going home so soon! I won't get away until the 27th at least.
Hey Poppins, I wish my fat would leave my body. I can feel all the muscle on my body (even my arms have muscle, and that's never happened before!) but there's definitly still a very thick layer of fat over them. Paticularly over my belly, which is where I tend to store fat. Your fat will soon be gone, especially if your body is growing tired of it.
Poppins, I wish my body would reject the fat on it. Instead, it seems intent on hanging on to for as long as possible.
Yuppiegirl, sorry to hear about your friend.
Ennay, welcome to featherweights! You definitely belong here! When you figure out how to get your brain to catch up to your body, be sure to clue me in. I've been at this weight since around Aug of last year, but in my mind I'm still the chubby, dumpy girl.
which really stinks. Obviously of healthy foods. I can lose the rest of those calories through daily exercise if I choose, according t o her. When I told her I had been eating 1200 calories or so she was kinda upset and said that was way too restrictive nutrient wise and after hair analysis and trying to determine why I keep getting sick that seems to be the consensus among the three doctors. 
it must feel wretched. Going up to 1400 calories isn't that bad, it's not as though you're going to completely stall or something like that -- 1400 is still not many at all!! Don't get too caught up on it, you need to keep your hair 
