Good morning ladies! And thank you for all my welcome greetings.
And guess what time it is? Ah see...I knew you'd get it wrong! Hee hee! I am a little earlier than of late as it is on;y 01:15 as I begin this post
I think I had better tell you a few deails about myself, seeing as I gatecashed on to the thread the other morning without a "by your leave!"
I am 40 (in June this year) and I live alone in my own home with my West Highland White Terrier called Holly, who is 7 1/2 yrs old. I used to work as a general nurse in the recovery department until I re-trained for a qualificaion in psychiatry and then I worked in an in-patient unit for 6 years and then as a CPN (community psychiatric nurse). I loved it...well, as far as anyone does love their job forst thing on a Monday morning
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I play the violin as a semi-professional and get invited to play for select orchestras and I used to front up a Christian folk band. Spare time was not on any agenda!
Then all this came crashing to a halt.A few things happened. As a baby I was born with a congenital spinal scoliosis which had never really given me too much trouble..only when I had fallen from a horse or had a car accident...
or sat playing the violin for too long in an orchstral concert. I had also had glandular fever twice in my late teens and it had become a chronic viral condition known as Epstein Barr Syndrome..and then I got it a third time and was off sick from work (at this time I was running a unit for the elderly mentally ill) for 3 months. I got back to work on reduced hours and the crunch came when I fell asleep at the wheel driving home from work one day. The Lord was looking after me, thats for certain! I was unhurt and woke up driving along a hedge on the opposite side of the road I should have been going along! No-one else was involved. It did shake me up rather and after huge deliberations I decided I couldn't carry on any more so I was retired from nursing on medical grounds. I thouhjt my world had ended...
After this episode my back pain started to get the better of me and I started getting altered sensation down my legs if I stood up for longer than about 10 minutes. Lumbar area pain was becoming intolerable and life got very difficult.
I thought I had enough to contend with, when another blow hit me physically. I caught a virus that wiped out nearly 3/4 of my heart muscle...to say I was distraught is certainly putting it very mildly!
I ended up in a private psychiatric hospital 60 miles from home for 18 weeks and came home trying to get some of my former life's activities back again....The ultimate treatment for this cardiomyopathy is a heart transplant..
I currently run (oh ha ha! I can't "run" anywhere!!) on 26% of normal heart function.
But the Lord doesn't seem to want me in His presence yet.
My cardiologist is amazed at the recovery my heart has managed in that she gave me a year to live and here I am, very nearly 4 years after it all started...
and not as ill as she thinks I should be by half!!
Life, as I said earlier, is extremely difficult at times.
I get very depressed and do feel that my emotions are constantly in turmoil. The back pain is horrendous and no-one in the medical fraternity seems to be able to give me any adequate pain relief to make life more worth the living of it. About 13 days ago I had three injections into my spinal ligaments and my saco-iliac joint ligament. I feel as though I have been run over by a raging bull! It has been agony ever since! Apparently the good doctor teels me it could be as long as 4 weeks before I feel as though there could be any pain reief through the injections. As you see, the jury is still out on that decision!!
And so that, my friends, is the history of me! Oh. Apart from the added interest that has arisen because of a lump in my neck that has suddenly appeared despite being on antibiotics for a week. I saw my g.p. yesterday and he is sending me today for a chest x-ray. Yes I am panicking!
I am sure it is a swollen gland but my blood count shows an infection somewhere in the system and the g.p. muttered soething along the lines of "we need to know what it is, so I may send you to an e.n.t. specialist if it doesn't settle down...and they may want to cut it out!"
So you see all this combined is probably the reason for my rogue sleep pattern. If you can call it a "pattern"!
Thank you for the offer of payer, SunnyD57. I think my request would be for this lump to be nothing more serious than a nuisance swollen gland that doesn't need any treatment, and that I will not be getting the heabie-jeebies over it. I do enough of that with everything else already! I also need for some of this back pain to abate!
Sorry I have taken up practically a whole page to myself! And I am sorry not to have replied to anyone's posts at this time....promise to play "catch up" and find out who...and where...you all are in the world!
Meanwhile...take good care of yourselves and everyone you love.
God Bless. Watch out for the gaurdian angels all around. I certainly know they are there!!!