i keep forgetting about this forum..
Please pray for me, been a believer for a long long time and holding onto my faith now w/everything i have. Trials and tribulations galore and of long standing. Husband has severe chronic illnesses including severe pain, we have no health insurance and no doctors and almost poverty level, he's 65 and has to work as hard as when he was 30 (self employed) and today i had one of my panic attacks....H and i were to pick up my brother from the hospital after back surgery where he was to stay at our house at least overnight, i was supposed to drive his car back and H drive our car w/my brother. Well i had a major attack and just COULDN'T go and H is now trying to find his way to the hospital and navigate all that--i'm usually the eyes and ears.
on top of it, the shame, the way i am shaken inside, the loss of self esteem (it can't be helped, it happens no matter what) and how i've let people down and now have to pick up the pieces. Trying not to make a big deal of it in my head or it'll damage me even more. Don't understand the constant endless prayers to the Lord for..i'm talking decades...and a lot more prayers than answers!! *sigh*
Last edited by ReillyJ : 07-15-2014 at 02:27 PM.