What a great telling of events - and as all good stories go; there is a happy ending !!! I have many songs I have turned to in the last 6 months - serving as constant reminders.... but I think the biggest reminder is: well... short story...
I had a "friend" (use the term loosely) who criticized how strict I am with DD. DD has many illnesses and reality is, some physical restrainsts. I allow her to do more than I should, but do not (regardless what "she" believes) shelter her in any way. This was the straw that broke the camel's back and I felt myself about to snap. Honestly, no idea why it popped in my head... but as she turned and walked away and my face was red with frustration (vein popping in head ticked)... instantly thought of Jesus. He was stoned, cast out, treated horribly...and he STILL died for US... died for those people who treated him as such... gave his life so those very same people could be forgiven of sins and have everlasting life.... Ok.. reality check. That "friend" had an opinion... it upset me... should it? Absolutely allowed to have feelings, but I was not treating it in a Godly manner and almost crossed a line myself.
It's weird... but things like that just pop in my head. I am calmed by those, and music. Kirk Franklin, Jamie Slocum just recently. I know how you feel and soooo very glad your faith held you
Worship is part of the armor that holds us strong