SWEETIE ~ to answer your question in a nutshell ... YES! I think we all go thru moments and days where things just don't go our way. When I don't know what to pray anymore, I just ask for one thing -- MERCY!
I say just this ... GOD, I don't know what to say or pray anymore. Please help me, and have mercy on my weaknesses. Then I start singing and thanking GOD for all the blessings I have in my life already. That is the single most effective way to ward off the blues -- GRATITUDE!!! And within a very short time, I am feeling OK again and my normal joyfulness returns.
I want to say one more thing to you though; it doesn't matter what you have done in your past. There isn't anything that GOD won't forgive you for; and there is nothing that you cannot overcome. With each new day comes the chance to start over ... yes, I just love it that our GOD, is a GOD of many chances. He is so loving and forgiving. HE sent his son, JESUS, to take all that shame away for you. Ask JESUS to take away your shame for your mistakes and He will; then give them to Him ...
Now, go out there and enjoy your life. I just love your avatar; that is such an adorable picture. Don't know who the sweet guy is, but that is so darling. You are a pretty girl, and you are doing fine. You can do anything you want to in life, if you believe you can. I would just love to be at your weight right now.
I am paying for my past mistakes in my body, but I won't give up! I am trying to learn how to live and be healthy, one-day-at-a-time, one-step-at-a-time, BUT still enjoy my life while doing that too.
If your depression continues on for 3 months or more, maybe you should see a doctor and get a little help with Christian counselling and/or meds, if needs be; as depression can be caused by hormones and/or an imbalance of chemicals in the brain.
Sometimes, all we need is just a caring and sympathetic ear ...
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DEAR FATHER ~ we lift up BOSSMARE to you today, who is feeling discouraged and depressed. We ask that you help her and comfort her and take away her shame (bind her shame) for her past mistakes, and throw them into the lake of fire to be remembered no more. We ask for your MERCY, and that you restore good mental and emotional health to her once again.
Help her to see all the many blessings that you have given her in her life now; and, we ask that you put Angels around her right now to protect her from any kind of harm. We ask all these things in JESUS' precious name and thank you ... Amen.