feel like i did a terrible job today
Hi everyone ,
I didn't really feel like exercising today but I made myself go. To be honest , I always have and probably always will feel an inherent dislike for exercising, I think a lot of it comes from being disabled and always feeling incredibly inadequate when it came to P.E or any form of exercise, even though I did like dancing.
but today something was very off, yesterday was a horrible day, and there were 4-5 people in the swimming lane (theres only one at the pool,) and doing lengths in the rest of the pool is kinda tricky. In the end I only ended up doing about 16 lengths, when In the time I normally allotted myself on Tuesdays I would've done 30 or so.
The thing that made me get out though was when I think I had a panic attack, but in water. ( not fun at all) can mood affect exercise? because I think it may have today.
Yesterday was a bad day, my mother has given my childhood sexual abuser my phone number and he tried to contact me so I had to sort all that out. and I think it put me on guard today.
I'm still happy that I did something at least, but not as well as I could've done
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