I am sorry if I am posting this in the wrong place or if it is something that has been posted before. I am sorry if I sound like I am ranting, but I kinda am, I just feel so frustrated and need some advice please.
I have been working on on my elliptical trainer since the end of Dec 2012 and so far I have been doing well, losing steadily and feeling pretty good. I have also been eating better, really trying to make an effort to change my lifestyle. So all good, right?
Well, I don't know if it is just that I have been working a crazy schedule this month or what but over the past week I have felt exhausted. My body aches in the morning when I get up and not the good kind of ache you get when you have worked out but can still get up and go the kind that I just wanna curl up and go back to sleep.
I started a routine of doing a minimum of 30 minutes per day, usually in the morning but lately it's been dropping, I started doing 20 minutes at a higher intensity and was feeling good but the last week I just feel so finished I am lucky if I get to 10 or 15, and they are not good workouts, even though my heart rate isn't very high I get so tired and sore.
So I think I need to change things up, maybe some different exercises for a bit. I really wanna start doing kettlebell workouts, I actually bought myself some bells about 3 weeks ago, but I have read so much about how you need the right form and you need to see an instructor and with mu work schedule the way it is that is not possible until at least next month. In fact I have been trying to contact some gyms to see if they offer any programs but itís so frustrating, I am willing to pay for the sessions and classes but they all want me to take out a membership and right now that is feasible. I donít have access to my own transport and while my BF is wonderful I donít want him to have to take me every time I wanna go work out. It will mean trying to work around his schedule and I donít want to feel discouraged if there is a conflict. I canít help feeling annoyed at the gyms they all seem to be trying to push some sales pitch, which I know logically is what they are meant to do, they are a business and they want to make money but I just get annoyed when one says something like: ďWell you can do that but itís better if you follow our programme which will cost X amount for so many sessions and...Ē Yes, I know it is probably a good idea, and I know it will probably help but right now I donít know if I could deal with someone dictating to me. I feel like that would just end up discouraging me more and make me not want to go at all.
The logical part of me says I am making too big a deal out of this, that I am tired and just need to relax and calm down and then another part of me is terrified that I am losing motivation, that I will end up giving up and all the effort I put in and the little I have lost so far will be for nothing. Does anyone know of any videos or books I could get that could help me with the kettlebells just for now. I do want to find an instructor but itís just not going to happy right now.
Otherwise, maybe there are some other exercises I could try, squats? I heard they are good but I canít seem to do them without lifting my heels. Still I donít mind working at it. I just hate feeling so frustrated. Please if anyone has any advice or even if you have been where I am just let me know, Iím sorry for the long rant, really, I just needed to get it out and talk to people who might be able to understand.
Thanks for listening.