I totally get that.
For me, it's just faking it. It's a lot of self-talk that "I am training to be strong. I need to be here to become stronger. I am Xenia Warrior Princess."
Honestly, most of the time I don't FEEL that way, but I repeat it over and over to myself. And then, one day, BOOM flipped switch and I believe it. I assume you did something similar to get into a position to run outside. I just recently overcame that battle (I ONLY ran on the treadmill because somehow running on the treadmill was cozy and other people wouldn't "see" me) and I had to do it will a lot of "This is my mission. I am here for a purpose."
Last edited by Goddess Jessica; 01-28-2013 at 05:04 PM.