I was so sad for you when I was reading this on my phone last night that I couldn't even reply.
I know EXACTLY how you feel, I was diagnosed with cancer last July (endometrial). Unless you have had to sit with your doctor and hear those words, you have no idea how it feels. I thought I was going to pass out, I thought they made a mistake and gave me someone else's results, I cried for days and days. I had a routine test and they just happen to test in pathology since they had the tissue. A routine test resulted in cancer, I never saw it coming. Didn't even know it was a possibility, I had no symptoms (so I thought).
And like yours, my cancer is totally treatable with a hysterectomy and everyone thought I should be so happy and excited that I am going to live (and of course I was). But that doesn't take away the scariness, the sadness, the fact that I became a cancer patient right at that moment. Everyone, doctors and otherwise, told me I had one of the "best" cancers to have if I was going to have one since it's so curable. I swear I almost literally puked every time I heard that. And I did want to tell every one of them off.
I have met some very kind people since my diagnosis, including everyone on this forum. It's strange how things all work out but I really do believe everything happens for a reason.
After reading your post, I wanted to jump on a plane and take you to all of your appointments. I know the distress you are in. My doctors offices have been amazing and they truly are professionals at helping us (I swear they are angels in scrubs and white coats). I am positive they are going to be able to assist you in anything that you need.
Please private message me if you ever want to talk. Or you can post here in 3FC. We are here for you.
And.....we are going to beat this cancer. Cancer seriously messed with the wrong chicks, we are cancer warriors and will not lose this battle!!