hello ladies - I went to my doctor late last October, 'cause my suicidal thoughts were scaring me. And I was crying at the drop of a hat, or even without the drop
He gave me two week's free sample (10 mg) of Lexapro. I felt better the first flippin' day, just because of the hope that it would help. And it did work very well...for about a month. Then with the onset of the holiday season, I started slipping again. He upped the dose to 20 mg tablets, and I have been on that since.
Previously, I had been coping with the everyday stuff alright - married (but with some problems there); work 40 hours a week, maintain a home, a few community interests, and my beloved motorcycle
and regular exercise. That's during the non-winter months.
But on my days off from work, in winter, I would do hardly anything. I'd get up with my husband and see him off to work and my son off to school, then I would go back to bed...and get up and shower an hour before my son would get home from school.
I still sometimes just want to go back to bed...but it's a different kind of feeling. I don't feel that I'm crawling away to escape, but just because I love my comfy bed and the scent of the clean sheets. Weird, huh
And on the days I sleep an extra 6 hours or so, I still have no problem sleeping at night. I do wake up refreshed feeling, always.
I did not have any unpleasant side effects, no nausea or dizziness. Appetite remianed the same (unfortunately, lol) meaning I always love to eat.
I realize I should also regularly see a therapist...our insurance has a huge deductable, so it would be out-of-pocket, $60 a week...I still have to try to justify to myself that it's worth it.
Thanks for the opportunity to blab about myself
and
to all of us who are trying to cope and be well.