Well this is my own personal experience. For many years I refused to see my family doctor because I did not want to bust out crying and tell that person my life's story (I was embarassed). After 4 years of truly suffering and gaining so much weight I FINALLY went. I found a woman doctor who I feel more comfortable with. I just told her I was deeply depressed, what was going on, yes I did cry, and she was very comforting. She gave me a prescription with no problem. I did try a couple of different drugs b/4 I hit a good one so don't be hard on yourself if the first one or couple don't work. Just keep trying, you'll get the right dosage and drug that fits you.
I think for your kids sake, and yours you really need to find a family doctor now, and go. Don't wait like I did. Now when I look back I think man, I was foolish to wait so long. Millions and millions of people suffer from this and so many go w/out treatment. Your family deserves a happy mommy and you deserve to be happy for yourself. All it takes is 15 minutes w/the family doctor. If for some reason the doctor doesn' t help, find another!! they are a dime a dozen so get one your comfortable with. Again, I'm comfortable telling a woman how I feel I think they can relate so I found a woman doctor.
Good luck and please let us know how your doing, we'd like you to join us on the daily threads if you'd like ?
Hugs to you Heidi and to your kids
~ WORRY LOOKS AROUND, SORRY LOOKS BACK, FAITH LOOKS UP ~
Courage doesn't always roar.
Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying,
"I will try again tomorrow."