Hello! I am sorry to hear that you are feeling down about your weight gain and wanting to lose it right away. It sounds like it's taking a toll on your self esteem and confidence. I see a lot of me in you and wanted to share my story.
I am 5'2 and trust me, I've 'been there and done that' to lose weight, including anorexia and bulimia, and it took me a while to just "accept" and love myself the way that I am. My weight went from 130 to 86 pounds to 160 to 110 and now 172. LOL and I am the same height as you. Anorexia messed up my metabolism and bulimia was a waste of food and made my teeth rotten (all the acid wreaked havoc on my pearly whites). I spent so much money to repair my damn teeth.
Anyhow, I remember in the past, I would cancel going on dates and hanging out with friends because I was worried i was too chubby. I was worried people would laugh at me or talk behind my back. But here's the thing- people have their own problems and the last thing they care about is making fun of my looks. Seriously, think about it- people are wrapped up in their lives to think about others.
A couple of things I've learned:
- You are beautiful just the way you are. God created you.
- Beauty is not based on numbers; it comes from within
- You can't please everyone no matter how hard you try- if someone doesn't like you because of your weight or looks, screw them. They're not worth your time. They're shallow and you shouldn't be around people like that
- Life is too short to worry about weight!
I know, it's easier said than done for me to say "get over it." After being in treatment in hospitals for anorexia, and seeing psychiatrists and taking anti-depressants (the reason why I gained weight FAST), I just had enough.
The whole binging thing is messing you up! Heck, I used to spend my whole paychecks on food just to eat it all at home by myself and throw up . One time, I ate a whole large pizza, alfredo pasta, and a box of cheeze it crackers all in one sitting, just to throw it up. And i felt like crap throwing up , wondering " did it all come out? omg, i ate x amount of calories and only half came out".
You are in a healthy range and I would kill to be your weight. But, if you want to lose weight, do the Atkins phase 1 - no carbs. Stop worrying what others think about you, especially that guy. Trust me, there are a ton of guys that want to be with you. Even at my heaviest weight now, I can still get dates. You just gotta say to your self " I am one sexy mutha effer and if you dont like me , that's your bad" and live your life.
When you get older, your mind would be wasting time on looks..you're more worried about finances. LMAO
Last edited by chubbygirl54; 06-05-2016 at 09:35 AM.
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