Generalized Anxiety
There isn't a forum category for anxiety, but I think there might need to be, since a lot of us binge when we are feeling the weighty pressures of anxiety bearing down on us.
I am included in all of that.
I, at first, said I was going to do an Atkins plan, but I decided the real issue (for me at least) is not what I'm eating, but portion control and more importantly-- control.
See, it doesn't matter if it's strawberry cheesecake, split pea soup, pork ribs, or literal collard greens from the can..
I'll eat it up! Throw some hot sauce in there and go to town, satiating some deeper need than hunger.
When I was in the Army and shortly after giving birth, I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety and so overeating, for me, makes a lot of sense. I try to enforce my own decisions on my body and instead end up spiraling out of control and bingeing on like.. anything; rice cakes, popcorn, green beans, pan seared mushrooms and onions-- sweet, savory, sour.. even War Heads candies, gosh I love those little things!
So, yesterday I decided to ditch my Atkins thing. I made sure I drank at least 72 ounces of water throughout the day, and I tried really, really hard to listen to what my own pre-programmed body was telling me.
Today I did the same. I am definitely less bloated and feel less full, which is great. I even just finished some split pea soup. I'm pretty satisfied-- not stuffed, not barely fed.
But oh my goodness, this anxiety is driving me. I really want to go pick up like chocolate cheesecake at the store and honestly, my mind has been on honey chicken from the Chinese place for the past hour. My brain wants me to stuff myself silly, like a Turkey, and I'm trying very hard to enjoy the fact that I'm not completely distended for once in my life!
Just trying so hard to tackle this root issue. Sigh.
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