Maybe someone else will understand? My hubby views differently and I'm not saying he's wrong, just saying that I'm a mom and to me that says it all. Here's the story:
My 14 (15 next month) is with his grandparents for the summer. Happy? Yes sad? Yes. Me I mean. We live in England and grandparents are back in the states. We ( us here're, them there) have planned for our son to stay the summer in the states for school summer vacation. My DS very excited and we were too. We brought him to the airport last Sunday and he flew alone. ( unaccompanied minor with flight attendant chaperone) all very safe and secure. Security at the maximin. Flight went well and now over there. We are to fly in mid august to meet up with and stay 2 weeks and all of us to return together in time for school to start up again.
DS so excited and made a list of things to do and see ( we've been here for 3 yrs and is first time going back. ) I went back 5 months ago as an emergency situation with my mom falling seriously ill on life support. We didn't a
L go then just me but were prepared to have DH. And DS fly because was a real possibility mom was going to die) fast forward, mom home still not back to normal activity. DS staying with dad and stepmom whom I adore and are very good with him and kids in general. ( sorry so long but needed to give the full story so you can understand. …
Thing is… I've never been this long without my boy. My hubby is second marriage and this is first time together without kids. ( in case you are wondering were DS father is he passed away 2009) my hubby is relaxed and happy. Not that he isn't with kids in the house, but with no kids I think that is decreasing stress. Don't get me wron, I'm happy too and some days I feel guilty about it. Kids are stressful no matter the age. AND. Kids are wonderful too. I've been my sons sole carer since beginning of time. It's kinda all I know? And now it's just about me? I'm told to relax and enjoy it but I'm having a hard time with it. He is in excellent hands and I know that. But I feel like I abandoned him in some way. I don't have a depressive disorder , sometime I can have anxious feelings during normal times but that is a different story. It's so weird he's not here. I'm just counting the days to when I can see him. Yet I know it will be stressful back to school,work,homework, teenage mood etc.
Has anyone else been through this? How did you cope? We're you happy ? Sad? How many other kids get to do this and my DS is excited. But I miss him terribly