Yeah, it's me again with another post! Hiding from my mother right now....she could depress the **** out of anyone. Think the woman would complain at her own hanging because the rope wasn't new.
I've heard the term "toxic personality" before....another good one, is "soul stealer". Just wonder how everyone else handles blocking these people. Blocking their affects. And most of all, how does one avoid turning into one of them?
I mean, I love my family and I want to help but sometimes it just sucks the life out of me. In my mother's case, I "know" there is nothing that I can do that will ever make her happy...she's just that type of person but there is a part of me that still goes for the bait, still trys, and still feels guilty because I didn't do enough or plan better. Know what I mean?
And I know that my weight is a result of "stuffing it". I'm the classic caretaker but why is it I can't seem to put forward the effort to take care of myself? And most of all, why do I allow these people (there are a few) to come before myself? Even as I write that it sounds selfish but I know that it's a better way to treat myself.
****, don't know where I'm going with this....just that it's been a difficult week and I'm not liking what I see. I see what is happening, I know how it makes me feel and yet I continue to do the same things. Insanity.
So, I guess my question is....do toxic people exist on their own or do we allow it? I mean, there are people who are naturally users etc., but don't we teach people how to treat us? And if so, how do we stop it while maintaining the relationship?
LOL...well, there's one to chew on that's low cal!