hi I'm new here, and I'm very unhappy. I am disgusted with my body and depressed. I think the anti depressants are making me keep on weight or the birth control. but I just truly hate my body and i hate food. I don't look good in anything i wear so i always wear big hoodies. I'm driving my fiance crazy, everytime I call myself fat we end up fighting. he tells me I'm beautiful and healthy but I have a hard time believing it. sorry I am no good with words, and I'm probably being annoying but there is no one I can go to about this anymore. they have heard enough and think i just want attention. sorry again. I'm just venting and getting it all out.